I thought taking a leap of faith would feel like flying… but instead, I found myself floating in mid-air. Here’s what I learned in the “in-between” phase — and why I’d still choose the leap again.
Because the “in-between” is part of the journey.
One of my very first posts on this blog is titled “Deciding to Change My Life: Leaping Without a Net” https://crystalclearbyreka.blog/general-topics/deciding-to-change-my-life-leaping-without-a-net/
Think of this piece as the mid-air update—what happened after my feet actually left the ground.
Back then, I was preparing to leave my “cozy” corporate bubble and step into a world where I could build something of my own. I took courses, practiced my new profession, and did all the “right” things to get ready. On paper, I looked prepared. But deep down, something still felt… unfinished.
So, I found excuses.
First, I told myself I needed to clear the backlog of old tasks before starting anything new. Then summer came, and everyone warned me, “Don’t launch now, nothing happens in summer!”
So I postponed.
And postponed.
And postponed again.
And suddenly it was the end of November.
I had taken a few tiny steps—baby steps, but still steps—and even started getting my first clients. But that’s when something unexpected surfaced: I realized I was far more burnt out than I had ever admitted to myself. Only six months after leaving my job did I finally feel that spark again—the desire to create something meaningful.
This blog helped. It gave me a reason to move, to think, to express myself. Even then, I wasn’t super productive. I procrastinated a lot. I stared at my business ideas more than I worked on them.
But here’s the thing:
It’s not that I wasn’t doing anything.
I started practicing yoga regularly again. I finally got back in shape after gaining weight during that last, exhausting year in the office. And most importantly, I managed to rebuild the lifestyle I had been craving for so long—without the pressure of immediately needing to earn money.
And for that, I’m incredibly grateful.
If you’re reading this and you’re in a place that drains you—whether it’s a job, a relationship, a city, or anything else—here’s my honest invitation: walk away if you can. Even if it means floating in a vacuum for a while.
Because once your mind and body have truly rested, you start seeing opportunities again. Things start making sense again. It gets better, even if the beginning feels like a free-fall.
Now it’s late November, almost December, and I finally feel clarity again. I know the direction I want to go. I initially wanted to build everything alone, with just a bit of help from my husband. But I’m beginning to see the value in having a partner—someone equally invested, someone who can share the load so I don’t have to struggle through everything solo.
As with everyone, I have my strengths but also my weaknesses, and I’m finally realizing that having a team or a partner can fill in the missing pieces. It will still be a lot of work—just a different kind of work, and one I don’t have to carry entirely alone.
Maybe that’s part of the lesson too:
A leap of faith doesn’t always mean jumping alone.
💬 Your turn
Have you ever felt caught between leaving and beginning? Share your story in the comments. We grow faster when we grow together.
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